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Monday, August 3, 2009 @ 3:43 AM
tap tap tap went my pen today. I couldn't take down notes for two reasons. One, there was just too much going on, and ironically, there was too much going on because THERE WAS NEVER REALLY ANYTHING GOING ON! (no, you won't get my point. If you wish to, just keep on readin')And two my body was practically screaming for sleep. But of course, i just had to attend another ten hour day didn't i? Looking around the room seeing stressed slash unhappy slash plastic-happy slash bitter faces. Oh great day filled with my sighs of emotions. The morning was mainly me sighing the oh-i-dont-want-to-go-to-school-anymore sigh. Then came lunch i had the oh-not-again sigh. Then there was my epic sigh which would be summed up to be the people-are-such-fckers sigh. That sigh basically filled up my ever so great day.
I mean, the day wasn't THAT bad. And the only reason that it wasn't that bad was because i was holding myself up. I had people who sympathized that they were fed up with it. They were sick of people screaming everyday saying something was wrong. Well guess what oh-so-biased-and-hypocrital people, you are the ones that are wrong okay? screaming everyday doesn't help if you won't even have the courage to accept that you have to scream into a fckin mirror once in a while. It doesn't hurt to admit you're the ones who have faults. Look around, don't just listen, and see with your own eyes where the the problem starts.
I'm not one to talk okay? i know that. I'm not exactly nice, nor am i quiet. But if you say that I'm a coward for not speaking up, well, if you were as smart as they say you guys are, you'd know how much of a hypocrite i'd be if i make it a big deal in my life. Cause the problem was, there wasn't a prolem at first, THEN YOU MADE A BIG DEAL OUT OF IT. I care for you yes, but it's too much! You're taking too much, admit it, you can't handle the pressure. Every single one of us, as a n individual, would sympathize with you, EVEN ME. But as a whole, making us like what you used to have would be hopeless. And you know why? BECAUSE WERE NOT THEM! Were not forcing you to compare, and quite frankly, at this point, no one's stopping you nor giving a damn if you do. I'm admitting, YOU ARE NOT A BIG PART OF MY LIFE. I CAN LIVE WITHOUT YOU. But i'm not looking for a fight. I'm looking for a chance to speak up. Becauseof all the things i am, i can say im not a coward. I dont hide behind tears, pity, and sympathy. You RELY on it. So please, talk. Talk with everyone. Hear theother side, 'cause you have to remember, THERE ARE OTHER PEOPLE INCLUDED TOO! :D:D:D
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SIGHS.
Monday, August 3, 2009 @ 3:43 AM
tap tap tap went my pen today. I couldn't take down notes for two reasons. One, there was just too much going on, and ironically, there was too much going on because THERE WAS NEVER REALLY ANYTHING GOING ON! (no, you won't get my point. If you wish to, just keep on readin')And two my body was practically screaming for sleep. But of course, i just had to attend another ten hour day didn't i? Looking around the room seeing stressed slash unhappy slash plastic-happy slash bitter faces. Oh great day filled with my sighs of emotions. The morning was mainly me sighing the oh-i-dont-want-to-go-to-school-anymore sigh. Then came lunch i had the oh-not-again sigh. Then there was my epic sigh which would be summed up to be the people-are-such-fckers sigh. That sigh basically filled up my ever so great day.
I mean, the day wasn't THAT bad. And the only reason that it wasn't that bad was because i was holding myself up. I had people who sympathized that they were fed up with it. They were sick of people screaming everyday saying something was wrong. Well guess what oh-so-biased-and-hypocrital people, you are the ones that are wrong okay? screaming everyday doesn't help if you won't even have the courage to accept that you have to scream into a fckin mirror once in a while. It doesn't hurt to admit you're the ones who have faults. Look around, don't just listen, and see with your own eyes where the the problem starts.
I'm not one to talk okay? i know that. I'm not exactly nice, nor am i quiet. But if you say that I'm a coward for not speaking up, well, if you were as smart as they say you guys are, you'd know how much of a hypocrite i'd be if i make it a big deal in my life. Cause the problem was, there wasn't a prolem at first, THEN YOU MADE A BIG DEAL OUT OF IT. I care for you yes, but it's too much! You're taking too much, admit it, you can't handle the pressure. Every single one of us, as a n individual, would sympathize with you, EVEN ME. But as a whole, making us like what you used to have would be hopeless. And you know why? BECAUSE WERE NOT THEM! Were not forcing you to compare, and quite frankly, at this point, no one's stopping you nor giving a damn if you do. I'm admitting, YOU ARE NOT A BIG PART OF MY LIFE. I CAN LIVE WITHOUT YOU. But i'm not looking for a fight. I'm looking for a chance to speak up. Becauseof all the things i am, i can say im not a coward. I dont hide behind tears, pity, and sympathy. You RELY on it. So please, talk. Talk with everyone. Hear theother side, 'cause you have to remember, THERE ARE OTHER PEOPLE INCLUDED TOO! :D:D:D
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